Fresh Snow and Lace
                      Inara Cedrins
                                            
                    
                      There is a new piece of lace on my window sill 
and snow drifting over the branches outside: 
just a few meters further, and the goggle-eyed goldfish 
that swim in the yin and yang position in the center 
could float among the twigs, casting shadow 
on the iced pool below, with its bright-range floss 
where the lotus used to rise. I tried to step into your world 
but it would not hold me. This is the day I learn about the child 
 
who ran gleefully to the end of the hall and straight out 
off the balcony: the people below saw him catapult past their window 
like a bright bobbin, spinning, the thread unraveled. 
A time before knowing. What purchase can I have 
 
in the real world, the broom of branches interlaced 
like the crackle glaze on celadon? I dreamed of trying to return 
money to the crone with the basket of pomegranates, saying, 
I do not want this fruit: but sight only one old woman 
who sells lilies, and tells me, flowers must bloom in their prime time 
or not at all, and that she likes white, fragrant, simple blossoms. 
My hand wavers in giving, in receiving, I had no method 
 
as my son had, who would eat his marzipan torte 
in an order like that of writing 
a Chinese character: first the lines of filling, 
then the chocolate shell. Soon gone, the snow, the sweetness: 
it was good, there is nothing I regret. |